EXAMS are over!!!!!!!!yay!!!!!!

Nothing much happened recently though...quite boring life..as in like..just routine stuffs..nothing special.haha!!

term is really coming to an end..my friends are leaving one by one..esp those exchange students...hai so sad can....im feeling really sad now actually..i really like my group of exchange friends!!!>.<

but oh wells..guess i gonna see my sporean friends too...best of both worlds.haha!

How can someone be so selfish??How can someone who alr has a girlfriend not devote his time to her???Even for a friendship..friends also have to selfless abit what..if not how is the friendship supposed to continue??!!dunn understand why....selfish is the last thing u shld ever possess as a personality..even though human beings are born selfish..but still...they can always be abit selfless for someone else....what is their problem man....

as friends...we are supposed to give our friends all that we can..but there's a certain limit to it...we cant trample on our friends jsut lidat...let alone someone who is attached to u...seriously...so sucky...i really dunn like selfish ppl..i know im selfish and i hurt ppl's heart and feelings as well..but each time i did that.i grew and i saw what's wrong with me...and i wanna change...though it still left a thorn in my heart..i still wanna compensate the person and say im truly sorry...

why cant anyone just do that??selfish ppl are the worst ppl on earth seriously..they take their priorities over everyone else..they think they are more worth being given attention to than other ppl...just by this thought alr makes u a selfish brat...

grr...so pissed....

EXAMS ARE COMING!!!!in a few days' time..i still dunn have the exam mood..i better start worrying man...haha!i did study and am studying and will study...

im thinking..how would i feel when i go back to spore when i haven seen my families and friends in their physical form..it's gonna be so so weird for me!!!im abit scared as well..cuz like things will change..haha!LOL...but i guess i will just have to get used to it ba...BAHH!

on one hand..i wanna go back..cz i wanna see my friends and i wannt work..on the other hand..i dunn wanna go back!!!cuz i will miss my friends here!!esp those ppl who are going back to their own countries after their exchange prog had officially ended..it's gonna be super duper sad ok...:( oh wells..this is part and parcel of life...just have to live with it i guess..cant really do much...

im going to save up so i can go hongkong!!!

heh..accounting is so...getting on my nerves...i din like it as much as i thought i would from the start...heh:( im thinking of changing to law..should i???

Today is the last day of school.Im currently sitting in front of the comp procrastinating for the last day.Cuz after that i will have exams and i will be back to spore and have fun with my sporean friends..which is ALL OF YOU who are reading it!

Maybe i shld do a self reflection on how im behaving here and things i've seen and experience.haha!

After coming here, in july, I've faced immigration problems.And how i overcome it, it's really by God's grace.How God brought the asian gang into my life is very remarkable as well.This bunch of friends i met are really great, caring, protective, and genuine.:)

Having exams and assignments, i realised spore education is still the best.okay, u go crazy doing ur assignments and u get stressed..but u willl be forced to do well also.that's just my perspective cuz i personally perform better under stress.there's perfectly no stress here..at least for me now..cuz im taking 3 papers..i might be saying different things next yr.haha!but the education here isn't bad lah.just too relaxed til u keep procrastinating.cuz for my degree..things haven really got hard yet.hmm.

Recently, my mood had been ups and downs also..cuz of the things i've faced.but the bottom line is:i believe God has a purpose for me facing all these challenges and want to mould me into who He wants me to be.I dunn wanna be too explicit in explaining what happened, but i wanna encourage u all some things.

God is never failing.Whatever ur going through, He sees it, He feels it, He heals it.Anything ur going through, never be afraid to pray for a miracle, for a change.Cuz u'll never what God is going to do for u the very next min.He can turn the whole shitty situation to ur advantage and even teach u valuable lessons from it.

So, trust is the answer.

Praying gets real tiring and u wil not have the determination to continue praying if u dunn see immediate results.However, u shld still continue praying cuz whatever u prayed, it's either yes, no or wait.U will defnitely get an answer.God loves all of us.He knows our pain and suffering.However at the same time, we shld learn to forgive ourselves too and move on in life.It's not good to hold back but it's very ironic that we find it hard to move on.PRAY!

When God says "Wait" but the situation appears to be getting out of control, it is tempting to take matters into our own hands.But that way always spells doom. Perhaps in your postion at this very moment. Stop striving and trust. He will bring His purposes to pass in His own time.

I think maybe i just lack of trust and tired of trusting.But i guess ppl are weak..they tend to want to take things into their own hands and not understand the bigger picture that God has.So i guess it's time to let go and pray.

你能了解一个真心被践踏的人的心情吗？若今天，被这样对待的人是你，你会好受吗？还是你真的那么自私，完全不知道我的心在淌血？

有时候，我真的不知道我到底该不该继续为你付出。你对我好一点的时候，我的确很开心，但一旦你对我忽冷忽热的时候，我真的受不了这样的对待。要不你就直截了当的告诉我，不然就对我好一点。不要以一种似懂非懂的态度对待我。我可以对你好，我也可以让连我身边的人都讨厌你。我让你选择。你想要前者还是后者？

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解，
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切，
你又狠狠逼退我的防备，
紧紧关上门来默数我的泪。

to be honest..being trampled on is never a good feeling...i hope u can search ur heart and evaluate how are u treating this person who is always so nice to u.